Day 60

Well woo hoo today is day 60 and as I just told Johnny, we have to celebrate the milestones big and small (he's holding out for day 100...I think because that means will have survived both Halloween and Thanksgiving with our goals intact). The frosting craving has abated, thankfully..because I was getting close to calling Kelly and asking her to whip up some of the chocolate ganache that she excells at. Instead, I'll contine along my sugarless path.

Day 59

Party planning the no-sugar way sucks. We're planning my boss's retirement party and after talk of cakes, cookes, and other sugary delights, my body is craving sugar more than I have in weeks. I think it's the frosting, damn it, I really love frosting...I'd give up the rest of it to just be able to eat frosting...but instead I'll eat dates, apples and cheese and pretend that they taste as good as dark chocolate frosting, when really, we all know they don't.

Day 58

There are cookies in the conference room - read a message in my inbox. Ah early morning sugar, one of my favorite kinds. I thought, that's nice, deleted the message and got on with my day. At lunch time, I sat next to the cookies and didn't even think about eating one. I'll admit to looking at them, and they were pretty, but I didn't feel an emotional or physical connection to them like I would have 58 days ago. Hurrah!

Day 57

Wow what a difference a year makes. This time last year, I was living on chocolate and coke to deal with the stress of school and lack of sleep. Now granted this quarter is nothing like 1st quarter, because nothing is like the 1st quarter of grad school, but still, I have a paper due tomorrow and instead of heading for the vending machine, I'm just doing my best and I keep telling myself, "You've never written a white paper before, your first one isn't going to be perfect, so deal."

Day 56

Ah the no sugar way of life is alive and well today. I love Sundays when we get to sleep in, watch Meet the Press, talk to family in Scotland and eat sensibly. I especially love fresh pineapple for dessert!

Day 55

No sugar added..and Johnny did not have a Red Bull even though we were at an event sponsored by it. Having a very hard time getting focused on tonight's assignment...but I have to get started

Day 54

Today's challenge, dinner at NoNo's. Love their strawberry cake and their chocolate cake. Plus it's a social situation, book club, where it's easy to justify sugar. But I will not concentrate on the lack of strawberry cake, instead, I'll concentrate on getting to see my friends.

Day 53

Black cherry pie for Katherine's birthday today..the same black cherry pie that has been calling my name every time I walk in King Soopers..why do they put pie in the front of the store anyway..not cool. So, I took my apple in and ate it..and really it was a nice apple. Someone asked how Jon is doing and I got to tell them that he's doing really well and that made me think of taking care of my body and not abusing it with sugar anymore..and I ate my apple in peace.

Day 52

No sugar added today. I pulled my back on Sunday night and haven't been at the computer since. Yesterday, Johnny stopped off at the store on the way home to pick up some bananas..I so wish he'd brought home chocolate flourless cake..he used to do that when I was sick. Alas, no cake and I'm glad...it wouldn't help my back and it'd make me feel lousy for going this long without sugar and blowing it.

Day 51

No sugar added

Day 50

No sugar added

Day 49

No sugar added today. It felt good to be out hiking this morning. Poor Tjab seemed to be having the worst time of it. It's too late to teach that old dog new tricks, but she sure would enjoy walks more if she didn't pull so hard. By the end, I was afraid Johnny was going to have to carry her, she was wheezing and had a kind of raspy thing going on. But once she got a bit of water in her and a nap on the way home, she bounded up the stairs when we got home. As for John and I, it was just nice to be out in nature, enjoying the beauty of our state.

Day 48

Seriously no sugar today, why? Because we ate too much salty pizza last night and neither of us has been hungry today until now..it's what 3:11 and we're just now hungry.

Day 47

Wow, for the first time in this process, I forgot what day I was on. It appears, we're on day 47 with no sugar added. Today hasn't been hard, I had my food prepared this morning and haven't been very hungry. Not like last night grocery shopping, when I was really hungry and every aisle seemed to be full of tempting foods that were screaming "EAT ME ALREADY" but I didn't and that's a good thing, I hate to think about the posiblity of losing my sea kayak.

Day 46

No sugar added today. We got up at 6:45 this morning so I didn't have time to pack food. I had a breakfast bar for breakfast, an apple at 9:30 and I just got back from LePeep's for lunch where I two chicken and vegetable crepes, they were nice and I feel really full, although the portions weren't huge.

Also found the blue heart we bought in Utah in my wallet...I first found it in my purse when I went to Seattle for school, so I put it in Johnny's pocket the other day without him knowing. It's funny how silly little things like that make my day..but they do, they make me feel loved.

Day 45

No sugar added, even being alone by myself all afternoon with a plate full of Halloween goodies..Nice. I thought about throwing them away and then I thought of the fact that Johnny would probably enjoy them a lot and I thought, get over yourself, he should get to eat them and you can choose not to. So that's the choice I made.

Day 44

No sugar added! Even though some lovely person left a plate of Halloween goodies on our porch. I've watched Johnny eat a couple of them and I'm ok with it.

Day 43

No sugar added on Columbus Day spent at home by myself studying! Yeah for me.

Day 42

Yesterday was a sugar free day, just so busy that I didn't have time to post. Busy day, but lots of fun..those are the easiest sugar free days. Although John got a whiff of cola last night from Emma and said it was pretty tough

Day 41

No sugar added today. I've really been enjoying the chilly, grey day. The house is tidy. The laundry is done. I've gotten most of my homework done, so Monday will be a little less stressful. John's almost done regrouting our tub. All is warm and cozy in our little home

Day 40

Woo Hoo, I don't know why day 40 seems like such a big deal, but it does. So yeah for us! Hopefully the ellipitcal will be fixed tonight and we can start using it since we leave the house too early and return too late to walk outside at the moment. Hoping to go for a walk tomorrow though

Day 39

No sugar added. I've been thinking about being one day away from day 40.

40 days ago (the day before we started) I don't think I could imagine have imagined going 40 days without my crutches for every uncomfortable emotion I felt..and yet I have. Why? I think it really has to do with the sea kayak..I really want to be gliding across the lakes and bays of Washington someday. Also, it's also because I'm trying not to look into the future. I've stopped worrying about Thanksgiving..instead I'm looking forward to seeing most of my family and enjoying their company. It's the people that I'm excited about not the pumpkin pie. It may also be that I feel better and in control...I still crave chocolate sometimes, but I also know I can live without it. I don't know if I believed that 40 days ago.

Day 38

No sugar added today. I'm looking forward to the repairman coming to fix the elliptical on Friday. It's just been too dark when we get home to go for a walk..the elliptical isn't as pretty as the sunsets and our bench, but it'll get us through the winter!

Day 37

An emotional day for Johnny and I today. Yet, it's amazing how allowing ourselves to actually feel sad makes the sadness more peaceful and the reason we're sad more meaningful than if we'd tried to cover it up with chocolate flourless cake. It's better to know how you feel to know how much people really mean to you.

Day 37, no sugar added.

Day 36

Dealing with stress the non-sugar way. So I went to buy a bag of Smartfood white cheddar popcorn for a snack..I wasn't hungry this morning so I couldn't focus on what to bring for food...anyway, I opened the bag and was munching away. Only the next time I picked it up, I picked up the wrong end and dumped my popcorn all over the keyboard, my lap and the floor..not nice..it's just been that kind of dump your popcorn on the floor kind of days. I felt the strongest urge for chocolate cake that I've felt in a weeks..but I didn't succomb.

Day 35

No sugar added, just some of John's mind blowing chili.

Day 34

No sugar added..unless a lot of orange juice counts. Stupid cold.

Day 33

No sugar added.

Day 32

Today is one of those days where in the past I would have comforted myself with food. It's just been an odd, stressful day. I have a cold, a lot of work to do and several unpleasant tasks this afternoon. I went to get some soup for lunch, cause say it with me people, "Hummus just doesn't taste right when you have a cold" and the consistency is off as well. Anyway, I went to the soup shop, but the line was too long for my shortened lunch hour. I went next door and got a bunch of veggies in a bowl from the burrito place. They had the same delectable brownies they have at the soup place and I thought, man that would make me feel better. Then the sugar free angel on the left cried out, "False, false, false, the brownie will just make you feel worse..step away from the chocolate." I did step away and am confident I'll end this weird day with no sugar added.

Day 31

No sugar added. The first day of October and it will no longer be as easy to keep track of the number of days, sans sugar...maybe that's a good thing. It's a beautiful day and I'm feeling creative and on track, and since that's my favorite feeling in the world, it's a good day. I find it's easier to not abuse food when I'm really busy and interested in my work/school/life.