Day 30

No sugar added. Day 30...wow it makes me happy to see all of the days racking up under September. It seems like just yesterday we were white knuckling it across Wyoming and now look at me! So after 30 days do I feel any different? I think I do both physically and mentally.

I don't have the huge mood swings that sugar gives, nor do I have the self loathing that eating crap brings. I also am having fewer headaches..and maybe, just maybe I'm beginning to learn to cope with stress, anger, disappointments and other emotions in a healthier way, instead of crunching them down with the m&ms. I've been able to travel, see old friends, have people over for dinner and celebrate birthdays without sugar....those were some of the things that frightened me the most, and there you go, not as hard as I'd made it out to be.

Let's see what the next 30 days bring.

Day 3

Ok, so today is harsh. I woke up still achey like I'm getting the flu. I ate a good breakfast with a banana..which helps with the desire for something sweet. I did my yoga. I read my inspirational message for the day. I prayed. I wrote in my journal. Then I packed an awesome lunch with healthy snacks to keep me going through the day and away from the vending machine at 3:00. On the way to work, I realized I'd totally forgotten my lunch in the fridge.. John donated his grapes and little peaches to the cause..and yet here I am at 11:31 so hungry that you can hear my stomache growling, still with the nasty headache and sore body and I'm on the reference desk so little peaches aren't really allowed. In the past, I'd eat 2-4 of the little chocolate bars Katherine keeps in her jar or a handful of jelly beans from Madeline's dish, enough to give me a little sugar buzz to keep me going until lunch.

Instead of the sugar buzz, I decided to write about the sugar buzz. Right now 365 days seems endless. Yet, I keep thinking about Colton's statment "It's a lifestyle" as he chugged his water from the giant thermos he carries with him everywhere.