Day 27

No sugar added. Knowledge was added through studying though.

Went to the movie last night, Ghost Town. Really funny and charming. John and I hadn't eaten any dinner and he wanted a Coke and I wanted some M&Ms, so we got a small popcorn and a bottle of water and pretended they were Coke and chocolate. Colton is right, it is a lifestyle. You just don't give yourself any wiggle room.

Day 18

ARGGHHHH - PMS with no chocolate...seriously not fun at all. I feel like punching someone in the face (not anyone in particular, just everyone who keeps asking me questions today) and then immediately afterward, I want to cry my eyes out..I'm starting to feel like I'm going crazy..and then I realized why, which also made me realize that this is the first time in a really long time when chocolate or something sugar laden hasn't been my first response to feeling this way and it is hard, very, very hard. BUT, it's not worth losing my sea kayak over..so I shall just keep getting through the minutes until today is over, because I am stronger than chocolate.

Day 17

Constitution Day Challenge.. Cookies, cookies everywhere. We're offering cookies as part of our Constitution Day event. I must stay focused on the Kayak and the fact that today is Day 17.

Update: Success, not only did I not eat any cookies, I actually threw about 8 cookies away without even wanting to taste them.

Day 12

I'm munchy and I have to buy lunch today..not a good combination. I need to make up my mind about what I want before I head out, or risk hunger + munchies = bad food choices. I'm thinking soup would be nice since it's raining. Think I'll call the soup line and find out what's on offer.

Update: Soup line didn't interest me. Got a hot roastbeef sandwhich and an apple instead. Yes the brownies looked very very good. So good that I could almost taste them, but I did not give in..I just kept thinking "Sea kayak, sea kayak, sea kayak, day 12." Got my sandwhich to go and came back to the office to eat it.

Is this what is called "white knuckled sobriety?"